I feel a weight lifted

I realized today how much stress effects us. Rhen is a totally different baby now that we have a routine and he is in the same place. I have been able to enjoy him really for the first time since christmas. It makes me sad to say that but there wasn't much time. I am not as stressed and I feel he feels that too. He is putting himself to sleep, he is smiling all the time and I got to just sit here and sing to him today and everytime I am holding him and I start to hum he moves his face to where my face is. These past few month of stress have took a tole on me, I realized that the disease was running my life and not the other way around. Cancer shouldn't run your life for you. I know I did the best I knew how to to handle things. I can laugh more easily now and I am looking more toward the future without those stressful days. And chloe being a caner survivor!! Thanks for always willing to help our family and the prayers are felt. We miss all of you!